Lyrics? II - Wishing

I will vanish into the deep shallows
vanishing into the depths of darkness
Though I may not show it, loneliness burns me
I don't know if I can continue living for much longer

All I want to be is understood once
Yes, I know I'm completely useless

I will vanish into the next world
Vanishing into the next life, I don't care
I try to cry out as loud as I can
but it seems nobody can hear my voice

Why should I live?
It'll be better if I was dead anyway

("I can't seem to remember smiling
But it's never really bothered me much
so than why is it now...
Why is their a piercing pain?")

I thought I would vanish into the deep waters
But that was brightened my world
I learned what it was to be happy for the first time
It felt like i was like to be loved

I became stronger just for you
It was the reason I still live

I will vanish...
Nothing can stop the inevitable
Even though you were a light in my new eyes
There was still things that I could never tell you

I can't keep it from you anymore
My life is slowly fading from my grasp

("I'm sorry I couldn't tell you,
but I've been dying for a long time
not just emotionally, but physically")

As I lay in my death bed smiling for one last time
I wish for you to live happily forevermore...